Recollecting.

I've started thinking about my life and what I want to do with it and the people who truely matter. Over the last couple years since high school, I've lost and gained so many friends and the ones that have stuck around I know will be there for a good long time, and I'm truely gratiful to each and every one of them. Each of them has made an impact on my life, whether it'd be negative or positive but they have all shown me things and taught me things I wouldn't have found out about if situations were different.

'What ifs' have been running through my mind for a couple days. What if I had went back to Memorial this past academic year? Would I still be friends with Jennifer? Would have I become close to Christopher? Would I be here, in Toronto, having the time of my life? And of course, all of those statement produce they're own set of 'what ifs' and it's just a vicious cycle from there.

I'm so lucky to have made the right choices so far for me. Some of the choices sucked at the time, but when really thinking about them, I've come to conclude that I've done what's best for me, and in the end, I need to focus on me, my needs, my wants and my future. The supporting actors & actresses in my life are just as important in the play of my life but in the end, the focus is on the main character, me. I need to do what's right for me and just hope that everything turns out the way I hope it will.

Finally!

So, when I left off last, I was still boo-hooing over him.
And since then, I've finally found a job at American Eagle which I adore, working with people that are amazing and I'm so happy! Going to work is never boring and it's not something I dred doing which is always a plus. Also, I got 43 hours my first week so hellllo big paycheck! : )

We went to the ROM yesterday which was so much fun! I love museums! I'm going to post a little video on youtube of some short clips I took of random things, and I'll post it up on here, haha.

Well, it's nearly suppertime, and I should get up from my nap!
I'll post again soon, I hope everyone's doing well : )

Love,
♥B

Time, You're a Dirty Whore.

Tonight is such an emo night.

Today was going sooo good until I logged into facebook and saw pictures of him.
It made me miss him all over again.
I was fine with sending messages back and forth, but see pictures of him on my news feed was a whole different story. I really thought that I would be fine but it turns out that I'm not.

I'm not ready for what we had to be finished.
I wonder if he feels the same.

Love,
B