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Thursday, January 29, 2009
it's probably just flashed out
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Monday, January 26, 2009
Amazing
Wow,
This was the best birthday weekend I've ever had! I'm sure everyone says that after each birthday, but seriously .. best, birthday, EVER.
Thursday night we all went out to the pub and got wasted. In fact, I got so wasted that I was still hungover on saturday morning when I woke up. Amazing friends, plus great food, yummy (& cheap!) beer, GORGEOUS cake and a great band = an amazing birthday. I wish more friends were able to come, but I understand not being able to come home for a night/weekend .. I'm more realistic than that.
Friday was my actual birthday, the big ol' 21(!), and Robyn and I took a road trip to Moncton and we did some shopping and went to supper with her unbelieveably cute friend whos name I can not remember but she was so cute, haha.
In the weeeee morning hours on saturday I went to Halifax with Ashley & Kari! I did some shopping, got to see some friends who I haven't seen since August and went out to some clubs. Unfortunetly, I was completely sober the whole night. I wasn't feeling very well and it was just a better idea to be sober and I still had a lot of fun! Erin & her roommates had a SexyGirl party and it was so hilarious and really informative. I learned a lot about the vagina, most of which will go unused forever, haha.
And lastly, I came home on Sunday. I saw some more friends and ate at the Wired Monk, which is my favorite spot to eat in Halifax. It's so gooood!
And now I'm back home, back to the school & work routine. Back to wanting to be back in Halifax, haha. I need to get back again soon. As in, not go another 6 months without visiting. I didn't realize how much I would be miss it until I went back. I'm going to see about going back during my march break! Should be a good time!
♥
B
This was the best birthday weekend I've ever had! I'm sure everyone says that after each birthday, but seriously .. best, birthday, EVER.
Thursday night we all went out to the pub and got wasted. In fact, I got so wasted that I was still hungover on saturday morning when I woke up. Amazing friends, plus great food, yummy (& cheap!) beer, GORGEOUS cake and a great band = an amazing birthday. I wish more friends were able to come, but I understand not being able to come home for a night/weekend .. I'm more realistic than that.
Friday was my actual birthday, the big ol' 21(!), and Robyn and I took a road trip to Moncton and we did some shopping and went to supper with her unbelieveably cute friend whos name I can not remember but she was so cute, haha.
In the weeeee morning hours on saturday I went to Halifax with Ashley & Kari! I did some shopping, got to see some friends who I haven't seen since August and went out to some clubs. Unfortunetly, I was completely sober the whole night. I wasn't feeling very well and it was just a better idea to be sober and I still had a lot of fun! Erin & her roommates had a SexyGirl party and it was so hilarious and really informative. I learned a lot about the vagina, most of which will go unused forever, haha.
And lastly, I came home on Sunday. I saw some more friends and ate at the Wired Monk, which is my favorite spot to eat in Halifax. It's so gooood!
And now I'm back home, back to the school & work routine. Back to wanting to be back in Halifax, haha. I need to get back again soon. As in, not go another 6 months without visiting. I didn't realize how much I would be miss it until I went back. I'm going to see about going back during my march break! Should be a good time!
♥
B
Friday, January 16, 2009
can you hear me
"You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?"
- Hear Me - Kelly Clarkson
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?"
- Hear Me - Kelly Clarkson
Ever sense Corey passed away, I've been so paranoid about everything. For example, I came home from Katie's last night and I was expecting my mom to be home, and I must have called her name like 10 times and she didn't answer. So many scenarios went through my mind and I started to panic. And I ran upstairs and called out once more, and it turns out she was in the washroom. I'm just so scared that someone else is going to leave me before I'm ready to let them go. I know I can't go on thinking like this, but I can't help think about it.
It's getting to the point where I'm afraid to go to sleep because I keep having dreams about the people I love dying. I passed out from being just exhausted at like 10:30pm last night and woke up really suddenly at 3:30am, and I'm not sure why I woke up like that but it had to have been my mind trying to tell me something. So I've been awake since then.
I feel really bad because I told Robyn I'd go to the wake with her today, but I really don't think I can do it. It was hard the first time, and I don't picture the second time being any easier. I want to see him again, and again and again. I'm not ready to let him be put away in the vault until spring when he's buried. I hate that about winter time. Every one is going to have feel all these emotions all over again when he is buried in the spring.
There are so many "I should have"s and "I wish"es. So many thing I wish I could have said. So many times that I should have called just to see what's up. So many things I could have done. I wish I hadn't taken advantage of that. There will be no more of that. I'm not going to regret not saying to someone I care about. The "I love you"s will be flowing freely from my mouth, heart and soul from these days forward.
I love you.
♥
B
It's getting to the point where I'm afraid to go to sleep because I keep having dreams about the people I love dying. I passed out from being just exhausted at like 10:30pm last night and woke up really suddenly at 3:30am, and I'm not sure why I woke up like that but it had to have been my mind trying to tell me something. So I've been awake since then.
I feel really bad because I told Robyn I'd go to the wake with her today, but I really don't think I can do it. It was hard the first time, and I don't picture the second time being any easier. I want to see him again, and again and again. I'm not ready to let him be put away in the vault until spring when he's buried. I hate that about winter time. Every one is going to have feel all these emotions all over again when he is buried in the spring.
There are so many "I should have"s and "I wish"es. So many thing I wish I could have said. So many times that I should have called just to see what's up. So many things I could have done. I wish I hadn't taken advantage of that. There will be no more of that. I'm not going to regret not saying to someone I care about. The "I love you"s will be flowing freely from my mouth, heart and soul from these days forward.
I love you.
♥
B
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
...
This week has been so weird for me.
I feel like nothing has happened. It's almost like my mind has decided that its going to stay in disbelief mode as long as possible. This whole thing just does not feel real. You're not supposed to lose a friend. Parents are not supposed to bury their children. Twenty year olds are not supposed to die. He was too young. It couldn't possibly have been his time, not now. He was in his prime, just loving life and lighting up any room he stepped foot into.
This weekend is not going to be good for anyone. The wake is Thursday and Friday and the funeral is Saturday. I wish there was something I could say to his family. I wish there was something I could say to our friends. I wish with all my heart that this hasn't really happened. This is going to be a horrible dream that will last forever. I'll never forget you, Corey.
♥,
B
I feel like nothing has happened. It's almost like my mind has decided that its going to stay in disbelief mode as long as possible. This whole thing just does not feel real. You're not supposed to lose a friend. Parents are not supposed to bury their children. Twenty year olds are not supposed to die. He was too young. It couldn't possibly have been his time, not now. He was in his prime, just loving life and lighting up any room he stepped foot into.
This weekend is not going to be good for anyone. The wake is Thursday and Friday and the funeral is Saturday. I wish there was something I could say to his family. I wish there was something I could say to our friends. I wish with all my heart that this hasn't really happened. This is going to be a horrible dream that will last forever. I'll never forget you, Corey.
♥,
B
Sunday, January 11, 2009
RIP Corey
I lost a good friend tonight.
It makes me realize how much I take advantage of.
RIP Corey.
You are an amazing person and you will be forever missed.
♥
B
It makes me realize how much I take advantage of.
RIP Corey.
You are an amazing person and you will be forever missed.
♥
B
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