I lost a good friend tonight.
It makes me realize how much I take advantage of.
RIP Corey.
You are an amazing person and you will be forever missed.
♥
B
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
dreams
I just woke up. and yes it's after 3pm, stop judging.
Anyway, I had the craziest dream! I don't remember all the details but this is what I do remember:
- I was by my neighbours house and somehow there was ground beef everywhere on the ground and I was feverishly trying to clean it up because that day was two things; According to African legends, it was the day of mice, where all the mice came out and were every where and ate everything and according to Zimbabwean legends, it was the day of the fleas where fleas come out everywhere.
- Then I ended up in the kitchen of an old restaurant. I was talking with the cooks and then went out in the dinning room, where there was no tables, just people standing around drinking beer.
- Then there were sirens like crazy and we saw a helicopter land on the Centenial bridge and all these army cars and people come up after it and cross the bridge.
- Then I ended up at someone's house and everyone was dressed in prom attire and I was going with Emily and she was wearing this big pink dress and she wanted to go this movie and I refused to and she got really mad. Then Emily turned into Jennifer and we fought all the way to the movies and she spilt sweet and sour sauce on my leg and that made me even more mad.
- And then I woke up.
There were other parts, something about old people and an old saloon where I was holding a baby and a dog but I'm not really sure how those parts go.
But yah, superrrr random. lol
♥B
Anyway, I had the craziest dream! I don't remember all the details but this is what I do remember:
- I was by my neighbours house and somehow there was ground beef everywhere on the ground and I was feverishly trying to clean it up because that day was two things; According to African legends, it was the day of mice, where all the mice came out and were every where and ate everything and according to Zimbabwean legends, it was the day of the fleas where fleas come out everywhere.
- Then I ended up in the kitchen of an old restaurant. I was talking with the cooks and then went out in the dinning room, where there was no tables, just people standing around drinking beer.
- Then there were sirens like crazy and we saw a helicopter land on the Centenial bridge and all these army cars and people come up after it and cross the bridge.
- Then I ended up at someone's house and everyone was dressed in prom attire and I was going with Emily and she was wearing this big pink dress and she wanted to go this movie and I refused to and she got really mad. Then Emily turned into Jennifer and we fought all the way to the movies and she spilt sweet and sour sauce on my leg and that made me even more mad.
- And then I woke up.
There were other parts, something about old people and an old saloon where I was holding a baby and a dog but I'm not really sure how those parts go.
But yah, superrrr random. lol
♥B
Friday, January 9, 2009
silenced.
Have you ever wanted to talk about something but feel like you can't because of where you live, who you're friends with and what they would have to say in retaliation?
There's a lot I want to talk about, not only on here but also on talky-blogs on youtube but I feel that because I live in this shithole, and people from here ARE watching my videos, that I have to watch what I say.
I don't mean 'Omg, I'm so famous here', what I mean is that a former teacher of mine displayed one of my videos to her entire 10th grade class one day in December. And people I never thought would watch them, have seen them. Again, I'm not saying YouTube is going to call me tomorrow and be their spokesperson, but I feel like there are issues that I can't talk about.
I would love to talk about homophobia in this area, the way I'm treated when I go out to a certain 'club', and the people who make me feel like I'm less of a person. But I also want to talk about the people who love and support me, the ones who accept me and the ones who make me feel like I'm just like everyone else.
Maybe I will gain the courage to speak about those topics one day... I really hope I do. Being treated like a second-class citizen is not right. Being belittled, made fun of, told off, threatened, is not right. I'm just like everyone else, the only difference between me and Joe the Plumber is that I'd rather wake up to a man lying with me.
I think I'm going to have to do a gay-themed talky-blog soon. There's a lot I need to get off my chest.
♥B
There's a lot I want to talk about, not only on here but also on talky-blogs on youtube but I feel that because I live in this shithole, and people from here ARE watching my videos, that I have to watch what I say.
I don't mean 'Omg, I'm so famous here', what I mean is that a former teacher of mine displayed one of my videos to her entire 10th grade class one day in December. And people I never thought would watch them, have seen them. Again, I'm not saying YouTube is going to call me tomorrow and be their spokesperson, but I feel like there are issues that I can't talk about.
I would love to talk about homophobia in this area, the way I'm treated when I go out to a certain 'club', and the people who make me feel like I'm less of a person. But I also want to talk about the people who love and support me, the ones who accept me and the ones who make me feel like I'm just like everyone else.
Maybe I will gain the courage to speak about those topics one day... I really hope I do. Being treated like a second-class citizen is not right. Being belittled, made fun of, told off, threatened, is not right. I'm just like everyone else, the only difference between me and Joe the Plumber is that I'd rather wake up to a man lying with me.
I think I'm going to have to do a gay-themed talky-blog soon. There's a lot I need to get off my chest.
♥B
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Good News!
I'm 99% sure I'm going to have enough credits to graduate in June.
FUCK YES!
I feel like I'm back in high school, just praying to get out of this no where town. fuckkkk.
but in the meantime, check out my new youtube video!
And yes, I know it says Make A Ginger Bread. I had no idea it was going to cut off the rest of the words, haha. Because I'm a moron like that. Just watch it already.
♥B
FUCK YES!
I feel like I'm back in high school, just praying to get out of this no where town. fuckkkk.
but in the meantime, check out my new youtube video!
And yes, I know it says Make A Ginger Bread. I had no idea it was going to cut off the rest of the words, haha. Because I'm a moron like that. Just watch it already.
♥B
Monday, January 5, 2009
Back into the Swing of Things.
Okay, okay.
Now that there's some regularity back in my life, you know, with school starting up again .. I'll be able to post more blog entries.
This has been an amazing Christmas break. I may have gone out too much. I may have drank too much. And I may have worked too much. But in the end, it's all worth it.
This morning there was a motivational speaker for the college. And all I could do was walk out. I'm going to need more than one motivational speaker to make me want to come to class and work my ass off. I slacked like a mother fucker last semester and ended with an 83% average, which is just wonderful in my eyes. I'm a motivational speaker's worst nightmare when it comes to completing this damn diploma.
I can't wait until June!!
Now that there's some regularity back in my life, you know, with school starting up again .. I'll be able to post more blog entries.
This has been an amazing Christmas break. I may have gone out too much. I may have drank too much. And I may have worked too much. But in the end, it's all worth it.
This morning there was a motivational speaker for the college. And all I could do was walk out. I'm going to need more than one motivational speaker to make me want to come to class and work my ass off. I slacked like a mother fucker last semester and ended with an 83% average, which is just wonderful in my eyes. I'm a motivational speaker's worst nightmare when it comes to completing this damn diploma.
I can't wait until June!!
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